Kickboxing... ME???

So, my friend Nicole has been asking me to join her at this martial arts studio for kickboxing, strength training, etc... Honestly, the idea scared the crap out of me. I'm fat - how can I stand in front of a mirror and watch myself kickbox in front of others? Well, the persistence of a very good friend and me promising to myself and you that I am going to try my hardest got me to go to my first cardio kickboxing class ever in my life tonight.

It... Kicked... My... Ass... But it felt soooo good afterward! :) Honestly, it was one of the hardest workouts I have ever done in my life, but I did it and I looked at myself in the mirror and I conquered my fear. Now, I want more. hahaha. Who knew! What makes it even better is that I got to do the class with a friend and I never, not once, felt as if anyone was judging me. In fact, I felt encouraged!

Tomorrow marks the beginning of weight watchers at work. For the next 16 weeks I'll be counting points. Fingers crossed!! :)

Did I mention I'm going to go look at dresses this weekend? I'm really excited but obviously I'm having some anxiety since I had a dream last night that I couldn't fit into a dress and then walked out in front of everyone in this really short ill fitting dress that came about 5 inches above my knee. HAHAHA. I saw a dress that I really love online that I'm going to try on. I wonder if I'll love it on me as much as I love it online? It's strapless which scares the crap out of me... who wants the little fat roll by your armpit rolling over the dress??? Maybe by December 31 I won't have that little fat roll anymore though!

Alright, I think I'll finish watching 24 and try to relax from my heart pumping kickboxing class. I'd like to thank my friend Nicole for pushing me to get there - she's amazing and I love her like crazy. Good night all. More tomorrow.

L.